urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl CaNdY CaNdY 2005-12-07T00:44:47Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:31927 2005-12-07T00:44:47Z 2005-12-07T00:44:47Z hey guys!!! <br /><br />ive been myspacin it up lately so ive been doing the blog thing there so check it out <br /><br /><a href="http://www.myspace.com/30679781">http://www.myspace.com/30679781</a><br /><br />blog.<br /><a href="http://blog.myspace.com/30679781">http://blog.myspace.com/30679781</a><br /><br />see ya around<br /><br />-Candice urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:31655 2005-12-01T17:44:16Z 2005-12-01T17:44:16Z sooo yeah i know i havent up dated in a long ass while but its not like any one reads this lol... so yeah i had my party and it was kickin! I had 80 of my friends there and the beer flowed like water! i knew every one there! i didnt know how manny friends i had that cared about me but some people who were close to me couldnt make it so that was little bit of a bummer but the ones that couldnt make it we all went out for dinner and drinks! and it was chill! and OMG guess what chadder bean got me for my b-day... a white gold heart pendant necklace with 10 REAL diamonds and a REAL ruby!!! ahhhhhh its soo amazing! i wasnt suposed to look at price because he knew i would get mad at me so i didnt ... but my friend who saw it told me and i was like LA LA LA i cant hear you but i did and im sorry chad! but OMG the boy spent over $400 on me ahhhhhh! lol so yeah anyways then went on a shopping spree for my self because you know a hot girls gotta dress right! lol i got my hair cut all cute compleet with side swepy bangs! i love it! dont worry its still hella long its just got a couple of layers hear and there lol ... so aside from that i went shopping with jenny and crystal last night and got an amazing dress for chads companys x-mas party... and let me just say this will be the first time in a long time that im gunna wear a dress so resurve your blackmail pix now lol! oh yeah! and i got one of those mystic tans and it looks suprisinly good! anyways i also got a new " out fit" for the chad! and because of it i guess im an amazing GF lol ... chad has really boosted my confidence and i feel like im on top of the world! first time in my life im healthy! i have a great life, outstanding friends who are like my family again ( we all know the reason we drifted for a while), a great relationship with my mom and not just the best BF ive ever had but the best BF in the world!!!! and and an amazing job i mean im sooo happy they wanna put the threw school so i can grow iwth the company! im thinking eather marketing or design... i havent desided but i love doing both tho lol! ahhh sooo much has changed and im a better person now and i can actually say that i love my self! its soo amazing how i get ride of one thing that was hurting every aspect of my life and i just bounce back to be the loving cj every one knew back in the day b4 the one and only regret in my entire life! lol but yeah what else have i been doing.... oh yeah i got back into the work out routiene and went from 105 lbs of skin a bones to 135lbs of steal! lol ive been doing the kickboxing thing on the side with the gym membership chadder box is getting me ... ive been doing the free membership thing for like a couple of months lol... so yeah moms health has been going down slowly and its getting scary! oh yeah and i havent cryed in like 5 and a 1/2 months! ive just been so happy and free! so yeah well g2g get back to work lol revising the editor and celebrity contact list and publisists... ahhhhhhhh! lol i love my job! <br /><br />-Candy! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:31415 2005-11-03T00:38:10Z 2005-11-03T15:53:43Z retracted statement!<br /><br />thank you for your time urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:31026 2005-11-01T19:23:03Z 2005-11-01T19:25:15Z in addition to my previous post the email address for the RSVP and guest list is guestlist@loveable.com<br />hope to hear from you soon remember to send you first and last name! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:30866 2005-11-01T16:16:08Z 2005-11-01T16:16:08Z ok so planning a huge b-day bash for english dan and is going ot be a toughy but dan is finding a place to have it and when i get more details... its going to be a "guest only" party so if your not on the list you have to leave lol!and also if you cant think of a anything to bring there will be a huge jar for cash to be placed. it will be located at the front door next to the bouncers!between juliette, dan and my self there should be a big group... i will post an email addi in which you will have to send your first and last name to be placed on the list. after that i will email you back the location and times... the theme is naughy fetish so get started on your outfits! so girls get to shopping while theres still some costumes left! there will be bouncers so NO DRAMA!! or you will be kicked out KAPEISH? smooches kids !<br /><br />aside form that i have to get back to work! smooches all !<br /><br />- Candy urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:30703 2005-10-28T22:32:32Z 2005-10-28T22:32:32Z I LOVE MY JOB!!! we just had are holloween party lol and there were like 4 contests and i got 1st in two lol! first one was a team like cup thing and we got first. theres this one where i had to dig my face threw molasass, chocolate syrup, maple syrup, flower and whipped cream to get to these worms and then run them to another plate and i got first and $20 lol... i can still smell the whipped cream and it was sooo nasty lol.<br /><br />but yeah i love my job and the people i work with! its soooo layed back!! so yeah gotta get back to work lol <br /><br />smooches ! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:30256 2005-10-23T17:40:42Z 2005-10-23T17:40:42Z i have an opp. as of monday for a major career advancement! to make a little more $ and 40 hours a week mon-fri so when the weekend swings around im down to party... sorry to all the people that i havent been talking to lately... ive been spending alot of my time working and spending time with chad... so ive had a booked schedule! nun the less ive been getting increasingly closer to a more productive adult life! in this prosses i have been "neglecting" some friendships but no worries i will be my social butterfly self in just a few weeks! i would like to take this opportunity to tell you all that my 20th b-day is comming just around the corner and i will have a big party that im hoping most of you will stop by! aside from that life is awesome! ive been spending time with a man that i can say that i love (chadder)! theres no room for sadness in my life because the happiness is overwhelmingly huge! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:30121 2005-10-13T10:52:58Z 2005-10-13T10:52:58Z so its almost 4 in the mporning and after falling asleep at 11 i wake up to loud talking and even louder music and a house full of my moms little drunkin cronies ... so when i first woke up after taking michelle to the bathroom and taking care of her i could finally have a morning smoke... meanwhile trying to keep from kicking some drunk guys ass who just strikes up the most mindles stupid drunken convo with me... i just fucking want to sleep!!! BUT NOOOO!!!! my moms incredable urge to act like a teenager has gotten out of hand for the last time... its a wendsday night for crist sake!! <br /><br />aside from that i had a pretty good day. i helped mark out one the set of his new movie .. so i can add acting to me resume! woot woot! any ways we meet up with chadder right after and found out kitchen papa is no longer owned by the same people and THEY DONT HAVE ANY CURRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so after being livid and setteling for islands... i go over to chadders where i had a quick convo with his mom over a smoke in the back yard and some hot cooco... after which went up to chadders too and waxed his harry butt lol! then a little anime, wow and FUN! he took me home. as i walk in i notice my mom wasnt home so i fall into a deep sleep and then the rest is right now ... my day had its ups and downs but the kicker is how i want to kick my mom in the head right now! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:29840 2005-10-12T14:43:41Z 2005-10-12T14:43:41Z i had the most horrible dream tonight... it had to do with alot of people i care about making all the wrong life choices... lets just say i woke up crying and afraid for them ... but i dare not talk to them... because they wouldnt want to hear about some stupid dream... ok well im off to get ready for the set. smooches! ill post pix on my myspace! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:29590 2005-10-05T00:29:10Z 2005-10-05T23:32:01Z Here...There...Everywhere...<br />HAVE YOU HAD SEX.....<br /><br />[x] In a bed<br />[ ] On an airplane<br />[x] On a kitchen table<br />[ ] At Work<br />[x] At a relatives house<br />[x] In your parents bed <br />[x] With two girls<br />[x] In your best friend's bed<br />[x] In a car<br />[x] On a car ... dose the bed of a truck count ?<br />[ ] On a street bike<br />[x] In the shower<br />[ ] With your boss<br />[ ] In a public bathroom<br />[x] On a pool table<br />[x] In a swimming pool/hot tub<br />[ ]With someones mom/ (What about their dad?)<br />[x] In a department store dressing room... shopping is fun!<br />[ ] In a VIP room<br />[ ] With your best friends lover<br />[x] In a parking lot<br />[x] With props... yay a man who likes toys !!<br />[ ] On a bus & or train<br />[ ] In a hotel w/ a stranger...<br />[x] In a hotel w/ a lover<br />[x] On a boat<br />[x] At the beach<br />[x] On the floor<br />[x]In the rain... camping too<br />[ ] In a closet<br />[ ] At a public event<br />[x] In a sauna.. the vacation i took last week was fun lets just say that...<br />[x] In a park<br />[ ] At church<br />[x] Camping<br /><br /><br />wow... i didnt know ive been having that much fun! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:29355 2005-09-28T22:43:01Z 2005-09-29T20:12:35Z MOOOOO COW!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:29122 2005-09-28T03:59:17Z 2005-09-28T03:59:17Z LADIES DO THIS ONE! (Guys Yours Is Below)<br />NOTICE HOW MUCH DAMN LONGER THE ONE FOR GUYS TO TAKE IS!!!! wtf?!?!?!<br /><br />Does it turn you on or off when a guy...<br /><br />rides a skateboard: not really... i like more established guys<br />dresses like a baller: off<br />dresses like a surfer: on<br />dresses in all black: on<br />plays a musical instrument: on<br />is skinnier than you: off ... that would just be sick!<br />is shorter than you: on<br />is taller than you: on<br />has chapped lips: off<br />has green eyes: ON<br />has blue eyes: ON<br />has brown eyes: ON<br />has long hair: depends on the texture<br />drinks alcohol: sure some one who can keep up with me <br />smokes pot: off no stoned dumb asses for me thank you !<br />smoking: well i smoke sooo yeah ...<br />has brown hair: ON!!! its all about the brunettes <br />has a tan: on<br />works out: ON!!!<br />Smiles a lot: on<br />calls you just to say hi: on!!<br />compliments you: on!! as we all know my self esteem is a little, well down there ... its getting better tho !<br />has facial hair: its ok some times if its well kept <br />wears cologne: on!!<br />smiles when you walk into the room: ON!!!!<br />Is spontaneous: ON!!!!<br />Loyal: FUCK YES no more cheeters!!!<br />Laid back: oh yeah <br />Parties a lot: on!! its all about being social here <br />laughs a lot: i hope at my corney jokes!!!<br />believes in love at first sight/fate: i belieave that love is only there if you know the person really well ... yes i have a wall of defence ... im working on it ! <br />wants to be alone with you: yeah alone is good but to much with out going out can get annoying at times ... i likes my space !! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:28737 2005-09-27T18:56:30Z 2005-09-27T18:56:30Z <a href="http://www.myspace.com/30679781">http://www.myspace.com/30679781</a><br /><br /><br /><br />i have so pretty good pix up there if you wanna see! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:28438 2005-09-15T07:14:29Z 2005-09-15T07:14:29Z <big><big><big><big><big><big><font color="red"><marquee> I'm a drooler!!!!!</big></big></big></big></big></big></font></marquee> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:28162 2005-09-14T20:54:46Z 2005-09-14T20:54:46Z the begining of the day sucked ass !!!! but then a little time with katie, becca and nana helped out but what really got me in a good mood was when chad got off of work and took me to the beach to just sit and talk ... it was a magicly wonderful night.. wink wink! its almost like i have found prince charming! all the girls love him and every one that has met him says that hes my first good guy ! a big change for me you know my history... sigh ... im being treeted like a princess and i dont know quite how to take it... as you all know my past relationship were ... well less then perfect and because of that it almost make me feel a little unconfertable knowing that im some ones every thing... but in an odd way i enjoy it very much! as we all know that openiong your heart for love or feeling in general also opens your heart to pain and anger ... those of which i am hoping to avoid... but anyways today should be better and tomarrow is going to be fun... we should be going to six flags with jason and his girl, who im dieing to meet... its almost funny how chad's jason is like my katie ... they even live hella close to eachother ... its kinda creepy! also i think i might have started a trend with the hole brunette thing ... last night i spent a major portion of the night dieing nana and becca's hair brown ... nana looks great but becca is to light skined for it. they both went supper short on they're hair and becca should have really stuck with the long hair but you know me ... im biest, keeping in mind my hair is almost down to my ass ... but thats my thing "hair". nana's got her nails and katie is all about the make-up... the three of us are the perfect glamor team!! any ways im gunna get going because im dieing for some food!! MOO COW!!!! smooches every one !<br /><br />-Sea Jay urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:28053 2005-09-13T03:18:49Z 2005-09-13T03:18:49Z <a href="http://gorillamask.net/billysballoon.shtml">http://gorillamask.net/billysballoon.shtml</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:27708 2005-09-13T01:55:13Z 2005-09-13T01:55:13Z MCOLord666: if scott was a girl i would date him<br />MCOLord666: her<br />LoVeAnGelBaBe: ewwwwwwwwwwww<br />MCOLord666: :-) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:27446 2005-09-13T01:23:58Z 2005-09-13T01:23:58Z "all i ever wanted was to pick apart the day, put the pieces back together my way" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:27299 2005-09-08T03:35:17Z 2005-09-08T03:35:17Z Smile though your heart is aching<br />Smile even though it’s breaking<br />When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by<br />If you smile through your fear and sorrow<br />Smile and maybe tomorrow<br />You’ll see the sun come shining through for you<br /><br />Light up your face with gladness<br />Hide every trace of sadness<br />Although a tear may be ever so near<br />That’s the time you must keep on trying<br />Smile, what’s the use of crying? <br />You’ll find that life is still worthwhile<br />If you just smile<br /><br />That’s the time you must keep on trying<br />Smile, what’s the use of crying? <br />You’ll find that life is still worthwhile<br />If you just smile urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:27078 2005-08-31T04:21:33Z 2005-08-31T04:21:33Z if you love him, let him go, if he comes back to you, you know its meant to be, if he doesnt, you know it was a whole waste of time... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:26747 2005-08-29T01:03:33Z 2005-08-29T01:03:33Z Your word is BUGGER. You are generally quite<br>restrained, but sometimes your anger or<br>frustration come to the surface and it all<br>comes out. Yet you somehow can't stop sounding<br>polite, despite it all.<br /><br><br><font size="-1"><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/purplestar1uk/quizzes/Which%20Swear%20(Curse)%20Word%20Are%20You%3F/">Which Swear (Curse) Word Are You?</a></font><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br /><br /><br />lol.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:26530 2005-08-22T22:43:10Z 2005-08-22T22:45:45Z 30 days- jimmy's chicken shack my week consisted of work... lol <br /><br />thursday i had off and so did chad, jason, sloth dog, and lisa so we all went to game works and got plasterd and played games till about 1am then went to jason's in pv and all crashed... mean wile the hole time i was being told that me lisa and i should hook up ( mental note: gotta love the football pigs) and that i had the ass and she had the tits making us the perfect woman. anyways we all woke up and went swimming friday and went to work...then that night went to P.V. bowl to get my sing on lol with Red, richie, jason, and chad then i had saterday off so chad, sloth, vince, mike, jenny, duster, and i went up to jason's for poker night... i played the "little girl" act and walked away with %65 of the pot ... yay .... and sunday i spent at work ... soooo exciting huh ? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:26134 2005-08-16T07:56:25Z 2005-08-16T07:56:25Z Tattooed in the back of my brain are the ghosty outline of tears i once shed. Yet the painfull feelings still remain. tho i should be happy to be in a better place, its faces from the past, now i have to face. i said good bye in seeking space, but the love we once had i fear will never be replaced. so i now look forward, with bright eyes and a smile. in hope that one day love will find me again... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:25786 2005-07-14T06:02:52Z 2005-07-14T06:02:52Z i got to talk to mike for a bit tonight on the phone and i walked down to get my hair done!!! its not fucked up any more and i love the color! i get soooooo manny complments tonight! every one loves the way my eyes just screem blue at you lol! sexy looking cj is a very happy cj ... next on the list is to get some tits lol !! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brokenheartgirl:25414 2005-07-13T06:02:44Z 2005-07-13T06:02:44Z so yeah the meds are kicking in and i got my hair, nails and toes done .... and the asian bitch fucked up my hair ... one more strike against asian women... my growing hatred for them has almost peeked to the point of not associating with any guy that ever says they have a "thing" for asian women!